Stan wanted everything the church wanted for him (“Temple marriage, white-picket-fence-American-dream”), but he discovered that he wanted all of those things only because everyone else wanted them for him. After his excommunication, earlier this year, Stan felt “pushed up against a wall” that forced him to decide what he believes, and, though excommunication has been very difficult and shocking in many ways, he often feels just the same as he did before. He continues to have spiritual experiences, remains close to the Spirit and very much believes in the truthfulness of the gospel, though, admittedly, now he questions the authority and advice he received for so many years to pursue a marriage with a woman. Through this trying time, he remains hopeful, and reminds us all to look for the hope in our own lives, be that through “Christ or family or friends.”

 

(The views expressed in this interview do not necessarily reflect those of the producers of Far Between but are reflective of some aspects of what it means to be homosexual and Mormon today.)