(part 2 of 2) “I think I use the word ‘bisexual’ sort of as a shield…” In the second part of his interview, Cooper clarifies that he isn’t sure what he is but is much more than a label, and he delves a bit deeper in some ways.

He doesn’t know whether he’ll leave the Church and find love or be in the Church and feel lonely but search for that really good relationship with a girl. He’s told that if he does what he’s supposed to, God will provide what he needs to continue. But after trying it for many years, he was unhappy in ways he couldn’t ignore. And he’s found that, “unfortunately”, same-sex relationships make him happy even though he wishes they didn’t. He knows Christ descended below all things, and he can feel his grace and the atonement when he keeps the commandments. He’s followed the prophet and seen the blessings in his life. But as awful as it sounds, sometimes that isn’t good enough to help him feel like his life is worth it, and prayer or fasting doesn’t help in those times. He knows what the church’s answer is, but he has to find those things that help him get out of bed in the morning and be OK with who he is. It’s exhausting to explore and face these questions, but he’s not satisfied with a life of mediocrity, and it’s worth seeking the answers.

by Jay Jacobsen

Watch the first part of his story here:  http://farbetweenmovie.com/cooper-part-1-of-2/

(The views expressed in this interview do not necessarily reflect those of the producers of Far Between but are reflective of a part of what it means to be homosexual and Mormon.)