(part 1 of 2 ) When Cooper was told, as a child, that it wasn’t OK for him to assume the role of the wife while playing house and think nothing of it, he started putting a part of himself away. After his mission, life went well for a while, and he became engaged to a beautiful, model Mormon woman. But he couldn’t figure out why something about their relationship felt mechanical. One day, he felt a connection with a guy in five minutes than he’d not felt with his fiancee in five months, but he was unprepared to accept what that might mean. After deciding to no longer see either of them, he became extremely depressed, and suggestions from his ecclesiastical leaders fell short. Lacking answers or help for his life, he attempted suicide.

Cooper feels when he prays and obeys the commandments that it just makes sense in his head and his heart, but he can’t find anyone to fully love him. It seems to him like no girl who is Mormon wants to be with a guy who’s struggling with his sexuality and no homosexual guy wants to be with a guy who’s struggling with his spirituality. Having no place to go for answers and belonging, he feels he has to create his own answers, which is scary. Confident that he’ll get an answer, whether from God or from himself, he’s waiting and living day to day.

by Jay Jacobsen

Find part two of Coopers story here: http://farbetweenmovie.com/cooper-part-2-of-2/

(The views expressed in this interview do not necessarily reflect those of the producers of Far Between but are reflective of a part of what it means to be homosexual and Mormon.)