While growing up in an LDS home, Adam never thought of himself as gay, though he played with My Little Ponies and wanted to be a princess for Halloween. After all, he couldn’t be LDS and gay, he thought. In high school, dating a girl felt unnatural, and when he told her he thought he might be gay, her understanding response meant a lot to him. But in college, he struggled to find a place and eventually took a break from college due to depression and anxiety. Later, through a series of events including finding a blogging community, receiving answers to prayer, and meeting new friends at BYU at a group called Understanding Same-Gender Attraction, he found spiritual validation and hope.

He doesn’t claim to know what the rest of his life looks like. He knows the kind of depth and breadth of a relationship he could have, believes God wants him to have that kind of relationship, and would like to be able to marry a man and raise a family with him in a Mormon family tradition. He loves the LDS Church, and whether or not they allow him to stay, he’s going to find his way.

by Jay Jacobsen

(The views expressed in this interview do not necessarily reflect those of the producers of Far Between but are reflective of a part of what it means to be homosexual and Mormon.)